Self Loathing

I haven't eaten since it happened.

I don't seem to need food anymore.

I feel sick all the time, maybe that's from not eating.

Sometimes I feel so bad I think I'm going to die.

Then I usually find that I've killed someone, and I feel really good for a while.

What sort of person only feels good after killing?

A monster. I am a monster.

I don't know why I continue to live. I want to die, but I don't know how.

I'd pray to God, but I know he won't hear me.

Not now.

Not after what I have done.